Thursday, May 31, 2007

參拾壹



今天是31日,大家有到每逢31日就大打31%折扣的Baskin Robbins去吃雪糕嗎?

介紹你一種叫Rum & Raisins的口味,根據我們的市場調查,那是最受大眾歡迎的口味哦!

話說回來,時間飛快,又來到一個31日了.表面上看,31日並非什麼大日子,生活照樣過.

其實,很多事情不能單靠表面來斷定.譬如說,31日,做sales的緊張月績,打工的等出糧,等等.

自己也有點感憾說,一個月的尾端了,一件有成就的事都未完成,反而把自己搞得更慌張.

一踏入六月,考試的氣息瀰漫整個學院.就連附近的24hrs麥當勞在凌晨時分也學生滿座.

大家都在為自己的夢想奮鬥,為自己的將來拼了老命吧?那種心情不難明白,因為我也是學生.

只是說,過了這個六月,我學生的身分也被逼刪除了,正式得掛名為一個無業遊民.會舍不得啊!

哈哈,怎麼了,距離六月還有18分鐘,我干嘛那麼迫不及待去提六月的事啊?奇怪也是不是咧?

沒有啦,也只不過是一秒的感慨.時間真的不留人啊!

最後來個 "家譽有話說":

一月的三十一日是道情疤

三月的三十一日是種煎熬

五月的三十一日是陣慌張

七八月等將來的三十一日是千萬個未知數.

PANAS vs SEJUK



The 1st word that came out of my mouth the nanosecond I left my house for classes was PANAS!!!! Its almost summer in the northern hemisphere of mama earth, so i guess it brings an extra spice to us too. Original mia PANAS + summer mia PANAS = very mia PANAS!! (mia = punya)

So normally what I would do to cool myself down the moment I reaches college is to hurry myself into the Freezer aka Resource Center, sit there or just stand there for a few minutes, and whualah, im' cool and dry again!

Seriously, I once doubt the purpose of 10+ units of air conditioners in a single lab, but i didnt ask the lab asst about it, cause i think its soooo lame to ask such a lame question. Then one day, i beh tahan already, my hunger for extraordinary knowledges (aka keypoh-ism) has dragged me to the counter, forced my mouth to open and asked "cik, kenapa lab ini mau pasang gitu banyak aircon ah?" (miss, why are there so many units of air-con in this lab?) HAHAHA! Guess what she answered. She said, "sebab semua tu computer sudah lama, cepat panas! jadi mau pasang banyak aircon buat ia sejuk." (Cause the computers are old and hardly able to release heat, the aircons are to cool them down.) Swt... No wonder!! Felt so stupid for not realising that earlier.

Anyway, I am actually in the lab now doing stuffs, no not that one with 10+ aircons, but the other one with newer PCs. That is why lar i'm blogging in Inggeris, and Manglish. Eventhough there arent 10+ units of aircon freezing my brain up, it is still freezingly cold! I wish for some sunshine now! Hahaha...

Well you see, dunno you will agree or not lah. Humans are tend to, you know, you wants the aircon when you are under the UV rays, and you wants the heat of sunshine when the aircon is over-cooling you. Like what Chinese people says, 'God is You, Ghost is also You!' Never satisfied nor happy with what we have one, as always! Hehe... No meh?

Blerrkk~ xD

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

獨居病老人的晚餐


麵包一塊+牛奶一杯


感冒茶(泡前)


感冒茶(泡后)

希望明天就會好起來!!加油!!!!

Not my day

I'm sitting in this freezing lab, doing something that im' terribly stucked on, havent eaten anything yet although its 1.04pm already, and congratulations that i'm officially sick! I'm in fever!! F*CK!! Just GREAT isnt it?!

Arrghhhhhhh today is soooooooooooo not my day!!!

在熬夜的你,要来碗清汤云吞吗?



陈记茶餐厅今夜抢先推出新鲜热辣多汁大粒又美味的云吞哦!

Order之前,想知道秘方是什么吗?

偷偷告诉你,瞧。。。
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怎样?要来碗吗?不要??WHY?来嘛就当老板我请你咯好不好?!


继续奋斗+包云吞中..... Ahhhh chiewww~@#$%^&

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

一二三

一张嘴巴,的舌头下长了两粒白色的ulcer,已经三天了还未痊愈。
看来我热气热到快爆炸了,有点快生大病的感觉。讨厌自己那么弱。
拼命灌水,没用。谁?谁可以为我买杯苦尽甘来恭和堂王老吉+药粉?
只想躺在床上什么都不做,什么都不想,懒散得度过每一个晚上。

也懒得找插图。

唔題

今天的會議取消,堂課有不是compulsory要上的,所以決定不去,睡到自然醒.

丟了桶臭衣服進樓下的洗衣機,煮了包泡麵加香肠,邊吃邊看昨晚下載的康熙來了.

看完了節目,衣服也巧的洗好了.最閑的就把他們拿出去曬的部分,還有要注意天氣.

這幾天的天空時不時就灑幾泡尿,真的有夠討厭.前天洗的formalwear就這樣淋濕了.

嗨嗨嗨,該做的不做,在這裡寫一堆有的沒的無聊事.該不該啊你說該不該??



嗚呼呼~看到了,我看到了!咦...怎麼有只小雞雞??和蛋蛋???? =.=" 人妖打保齡不是啊???奶奶的眼藥水拿來!!

阿X和阿Y

忘了提,今天在学院门口碰见阿X和他的忠实跟班(跟尾狗)阿Y。两人手里拿着麦当劳的Sundae,两根舌头在那边leh下leh下.... 呜~~~~好恶心哦!!

Ok对不起,不该把别人舔食雪糕的动作形容的那么夸张,这样做好像很缺德hor?!毕竟得罪我们的是他的人,不是那根舌头或杯美味的Sundae。但是,如果我不在自己的小宇宙里发泄一下,我还可以怎样?又有谁管得了我?啊真矛盾!

而且我也很爱吃Sundae啊,还有上面那层巧克力,hochiak!!只是最近要忍痛割爱,为了自己先天性条件不足的身材。苦~ T_T



狗屎口味雪糕,敢挑战吗?

Monday, May 28, 2007

老板,来半只落汤乌鸡~


今天的天气有够怪懒,早上断续的雨水逼得我非逃课不可(呵呵呵~因为雨伞被偷了还没买新的),然后中午趁我要去上课时就来个阳光普照+刮风。再然后,我要回家啰,就送我一场大大大大大大大雨。感觉刚才的自己好像在逃难般,从学校逃到Subang Square站个几十分钟,雨势小了些再冲到对面的店铺逛逛Watsons和7-11,再等等等等到大大滴变成小小滴,才甘愿回家。就这样,淋了三次/趟雨,还莫明其妙得把双手臂刮花。我又不必翻山越岭,也没有被老虎追,一条条的红色伤痕哪来的?真奇怪,真奇怪!

好久不见 陈奕迅



陈奕迅的新华语专辑《认了吧》里,也收录了一首《好久不见》,是中文版的《不如不见》。
歌词很有意思,黑白色的MV模仿了著名默剧演员,让整首歌的感觉更为...‘凄美’这两个字是否适合?


毫无理由得讨厌星期天的夜晚,手脚冰冷有点彷徨。

糟糕,好像又要大姨妈来袭了.........

Sunday, May 27, 2007

一举两得


今天和三位不算熟的组员们在附近的星巴克坐了整个下午。
积极得讨论作业外,也聊了一些平常在学院里没机会聊的话题。

来自不同背景的三个人,
过着不同生活的三个人,
朝着不同方向而拼力的三个人,
三个人的三个故事,all different each unique,非常有趣不是吗!?

这几个小时来也让我再度醒觉说,要真正去认识一个人是一项难如登天的事情。
旁白者的叙说或周围人的看图说故事,可靠性高或低就要看自己怎么衡量了。
Why not给个机会自己去好好和对方聊聊,去发觉事情的来龙去脉,是真实或是虚构?
这样对大家都公平些,因为不单只能化解不必要的误会,也能促进彼此的信任和友谊,一举两得呢!

我很享受那段时光,和那个彼此分享与了解的机会。
两位,谢啰!

Saturday, May 26, 2007

哇你好厉害哦!

亲爱的阿X,

我还真的佩服你的leh,可以随身携带那么多尖锐又隐形的武器。怎么说呢?

Neh,你那个甜美的笑容啊,哇我跟你讲,“笑容牌小李飞刀”刀刀都入心入肺的咯!

还有你的最爱--讲L话,每5个字就等于一把冷箭,一整天下来的冷箭足够消灭整只军队哦!

再来是你那双会电死人的眼睛啊,StarWars里的镭射光还不比你犀利呢,特别是你背着我们翻白眼的那几秒。 给你拍拍手!

我说啊,你单单在脸上隐藏的暗器就酱鬼死厉害,伊拉克没请你去反攻美丽之国也真的有眼不识泰山啊可惜!

好啦,就酱子啦,反正你也不会来看的,因为‘部落格’是什么你都不懂,所以讲多也没用。

其它人不要做仙家来对号入座哦,我没在开演唱会!呵呵呵~

特立马加西!


别以为我们什么都不知其实我们的间谍无所不在的我们 之 Alan 上

Friday, May 25, 2007

人家说

夜越黑 越美丽

我说

夜越黑 越寂寞




好累哦,终于可以稍微松口气,安乐入睡去!

晚安啰大家! ; )

Thursday, May 24, 2007

明天吃螃蟹

哦不好意思,此‘明天吃螃蟹’并非明天要去吃螃蟹,而是到SS24 Taman Megah的“明天”去吃螃蟹! (啊!今天破戒了!)



我也不懂为什么谭氏夫妇非到这里来吃螃蟹不可,因为实质上这只小蟹真的不好吃。
当然,一分钱一分货啦!好吃的新鲜螃蟹一定不值RM23那么便宜,贵货我就吃不起啰。

今天又“忙里偷闲”去唱了3粒钟的K!!!哇哈哈哈!!!一个字,“爽”~!
但忘了带student card,还好Vinson谭先生很gentleman得和我平分张单,多谢晒!

明天的International Management Case Study Presentation,I AM READY!
周五要交的MR Report其实也算完成了,所以明天后就是本人小休滴时候啦!

9点要起床,睡觉去~

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

好想睡大觉



凌晨2点32分,眼睛快张不开了,想尽办法让自己清醒过来把报告完成。咖啡?香烟?都不好。写部落格最好!
都忘了多少天没好好地睡大觉,也许因太过忧虑,精神很慌,很容易就被些小声音惊醒,要不然就作屁梦。
2 down and 2 more to go。幸好,再过两天就可以稍微放轻松,让自己有充分的休息和准备迎接终场战。
今天唯一值得高兴的,是那张law考卷。有100%的准备,100%的成绩当然不是问题!很有信心地说。

傍晚六点多,回家途中打包了晚餐,素食!最近吃得算清淡,也少吃了肉类。
一来,就是肉类吃多了对身体较不好,难消化等等。多吃蔬菜水果,身体更健康。
二来,体重好不容易才减了2-3公斤,不小心维持那行?2-3公斤算很多很多耶对我而言。
再来,一个人的晚餐,随便吃吃就算。只要把肚子喂饱,有精神和体力干活就Ok了。

还是尽快把任务完成休息去吧!

给自己的P/S: 不管眼前的有多艰难都得撑过去,因为你不是个弱者!

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Gemilang - Jaclyn Victor

Berjuta bintang menyanyi
Ku di antara yang satu
Mungkin cahaya dan impianku
Di sini... Gemilang

Lalu ku redah onak duri
dan lautan api
kemuncaknya ingin ku tawan
aku jelajahi

c/o
Kini gemilang itu
semakin pasti ku genggam
gemilang suara keyakinan kian dalam
gementar harus jangan
jiwaku harus bertenaga
mungkinkah kini
menjadi realiti

Lalu ku redah onak duri
dan lautan api
kemuncaknya ingin ku tawan
aku jelajahi

Repeat c/o 2x

突然被这首马来歌曲感动了一下。
第一届大马偶像 Malaysian Idol得主Jaclyn Victor 的 《Gemilang》

Monday, May 21, 2007

粉红色wallpaper



前几天在某网站上看见这张粉红色图片,我把它抓下变成了我的wallpaper。漂亮吗?

今天的presentation,也不懂自己的表现是怎样。第一次事前没刻意去准备而等待随机应变,结果很快速地把自己的部分搞掂,说声谢谢后下台将mic抛给下位presenter。

1 is down and 3 more to go,不停倒数倒数倒数,好像很迫不及待得想把学业完成。然后呢?

然后... 再累也被逼熬夜K书来把明天的test考好啊!

Sunday, May 20, 2007

WATCH OUT! very busy week ahead~!

Let me see....

21st May (Mon) - Marketing Research Report Presentation 5%

22nd May (Tue) - Law (Marketing) MCQ Test 20%

24th May (Thu) - International Management Case Study Presentation 10%

25th May (Fri) - Marketing Research Report due 35%


You say can die or not?? If can then fast fast come and shoot me, or i'd commit suicide! (jk~!)

There is also an alternative, that is to wish me All The Bestest of All and hope that i can get thru all those shits with my fullest double extra cheesy concentration and effort! Psshhh, i dont need luck ok? Haha!

Anyhow i'd still dig out some time for a ktv session or two, and to blog as much as i feel like, simply to destress myself before i go crayzeeey.

And btw, what is wrong with Sunday nite? that makes me dislike it so so so much!!! Maybe i'm already crazy pun. Hahaha....




Till then~

Saturday, May 19, 2007

小情歌

原来Red Box周六的K lunch只能唱两粒钟,超不过瘾的!!!
嗓子都还未开就出红色荧幕了,RM10++好像不太值得说。
No next time ok??

苏打绿的《小情歌》,听了好几百遍都不会腻。可惜啦,点了却唱不到,只好看看mv自high啰!



Petee也喜欢这首歌吧?呵呵

I LOVE M&Ms

On my way home this evening (yes, things always happen during that 10 minutes walk), i stopped by Watson's for some aircond.... HARRR?!? need or not liddat??? Hehehe just kidding, i seriously needed to get some daily stuffs, i.e. new toothbrush, shampoo & contact lens solutions. Then suddenly, i saw this near the entrance.............



----> ORGE-SIZED M&Ms !!!!!

OMFG arent they adorable?? attractive?? cute??! BIG?!? hahahaha whatever. Being a typical consumer who fancy new stuffs, very hard to resist right? So how leh? I bought both Milk Chocolate and Peanut ones larrr how else!? since a promotion was going on and i can save 30sen if i buy 2 packs.



but.......... 30sen??

*Pft~?* Ya ya i know, 30 sen doesnt sound that much, but what bout the malay peribahasa yg berbunyi 'sikit-skit, lama-lama jadi bukit'? (means 'bit by bit, slowly-slowly become big big!', as in as big as a hill)

Anyway i dont think i'm gonna melt them in my mouth nor on my hands, cause they look toooo special to be eaten, no? Thus, both packs are for DISPLAY purposes only!

Maybe until one day when my mouth starts to get itchy and...... who knows? the future is unpredictable right? ahahah

Erm... ya that's about it. Another wu-liao entry on a Friday nite. What to do? no place to go also....

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

tonight relax a bit can?



This group photo was taken 4 years ago, when i was still a Taylorian in TBS. Yups, we were the monkeys of Taylors Business Foundation 2003 March intake Group 1.1. The pretty lady on the most left wearing white tops and shiny long skirt was our Group Mentor, Ms. Teh Chee Ai! She's even more lenglui in real person, and married a year before we joined her class. Too bad huh? Hahaha... DUh..

Seriously i wouldnt dig this album of photos up and reshoot them with my cam if i didnt bump into Ms.Teh this evening when i was walking home passing by TBS. Surprisingly, she still remembers me, the ALan from Sabah!!! Kekekek... Well i had a few nice seconds talking to her, updating ourselves a lil bit, and went off as she was in a rush. *Pretty woman, walking down the streat~* Yeah she's still as pretty as always!

As for the group of monkeys, some were loyal enough to stay back, some went overseas as planned, some betrayed and transferred to other institutions (like me! & rach), and of course, some gave up and went back to their kampung to work in paddy fields. HAHA! Hopefully she doesnt see this!

After all these freaking years, there'r 3 of us who are still keeping in touch, very much!


Meet ME aka Alan, Rach aka Sexy Booty, and Suba aka Subidubi.

This photo however, was taken 1 and a half years ago, before Rach went off to Perth to reunite with her hubby, and in conjunction Subi's birthday as well. Hmmm... btw i do look much better that time, a bit slimmer, lighter dark eye circles (with no idea what consealor was that time ok!) and etc. UNlike now, being in this rather chaotic moments of my life! Heh... Yam gong lor...

Anyways, time flies, and life goes on with it, no? Today, you may be doing something, with someone, in somewhere; but tomorrow, you may need to suit yourself into a whole new different shit, i mean lifestyle. So whether you like it or not, life is simply unpredictable, TOO unpredictable i pressume. Haha, sucky isnt it?

Blabla yadda yadda WTF am i crapping?!?! Blehhhhhhhhhhhhh~ I'm dozing off d, lots of things to get done with tomorrow, and for the rest of the following 6 weeks. Go go go~!

Good night world!

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

cheering little yellow flowers


看见了黄色小花瓣随风飘落在绿色草场上的树阴下。

期待黄花绿草


不懂待会出门去上课时是否会看见黄色小花瓣随风飘落在绿色草场上的树阴下呢?

这也是一种对快乐的期待吧我想!?

Go go go~ 上课去!

let me go


to a place where winter is icey cold
that freezes my overworking mind
and numbs my ever aching heart

let my soul hibernates for a long long time
in the depth of winter snow
until the desired spring comes
with flowery blooms and warm shining sun
that melts me down
and brings me back to where i belong

but... where do i belong?

Monday, May 14, 2007

So much to do

yet so little time
& motivation

how i wish i could just pack & fly
away from this gloomy piece of sky


nothing much
just a sudden emotional downturn

Sunday, May 13, 2007

陈妈妈,母亲节快乐哦!


周六睡前乱讲一篇


我是个懒得用零钱的人,所以裤袋里的常塞着满满的零钱,又重又凸出!哈哈哈~
以往老妈都会把零钱从我裤袋里掏出,然后放入扑满里。慢慢得我便养成了此习惯。
后来离乡背井后来到这,懒得去买个新扑满,只好随便拿了个小纸盒来充当,一充当就4年了。
可别小看这装满零钱的小盒子!以积少成多的原理说,它可是在我手头紧时的恩物呢!

今天闷爆了兼一阵心血来潮,把里头存放了4个多月的零钱倒出来很用心地数了数。
70多块的零钱赶快被我拿到杂货店aunty那里换成钞票。呵呵呵,今晚的晚餐有好吃了!
开玩笑的啦!钱我会好好得用,要在工作前集点福,希望能找到份收入不错的。
而且70块罢了,都不必我往年的来的多。看来有必要去买个奶瓶型的扑满了,能装多一些。

昨晚吃Alice的farewell dinner前,有位赌鬼建议要上云顶喝茶。
我积极反对了他的无聊idea。干嘛?Starbucks和CB到处都是,为什么非上云顶喝不可?
坦白说,我向往的云顶,在心理的角度上看已面目全非,不再是所谓的娱乐城了。
现在的它比较像是个禁地,一个我不想乱闯找死的禁地。风凉雾大又怎样?我不再稀罕。

Anyway,晚餐后我们去了1U,的一间叫DELIcious by Ms.Read的cafe吃蛋糕。
3个人点了两件名字听起来满吸引的蛋糕share share,和3杯冰水--免费的。
Chocolate Brownies with Vanilla Ice-cream,满好吃的,价钱也算公道,值得推荐!
Peace Frangaxxxx with Vanilla Ice-cream就麻麻地了,连名字我都忘掉,No Next Time!

Alice明早要搭机回家,休息3个月后就飞往英国U.Hertfordshare念master,好幸福哦!
我的master文凭,至少也要工作个五六后,存够钱再去争取,可悲啊!
好啦Alice jang,吃饱好上路。。。。啊睬不是! 是一路顺风到家乡!
又走了一位邻近的好朋友,我会在subang想念你,而且我也快回去了,等我哦!XD

Saturday, May 12, 2007

忙里偷闲去唱K

一段时间没唱K了,日子又过得那么压力重重,非常需要发泄一番。
趁周三下午没课,忙里偷闲硬拉了F去Pyramid唱K和看蜘蛛侠。
其实一开始还满担心说,K房里的气氛会很冷,毕竟是初次见面。
而且以往和不太熟悉的朋友唱K时,都会有点点放不开,不敢放声唱。
幸好,F的真人满好聊的。平易近人外,也是个爱耍小白痴的家伙。

至于蜘蛛侠3这部电影,票房很好没错,但自己看后却觉得还好罢了。
也许是广告打得太凶,让我对它的expectation太过于高。
期望太高,失望更高!不是吗?



陶子的《太委屈》,是必唱的K歌。
曾经开玩笑说很适合唱给谁听,现在却是自己唱给自己听。哈~

Thursday, May 10, 2007

感冒菌入侵


被感冒菌入侵了,整晚就靠两大碗感冒茶和几杯热饮支撑着,来完成死期快到的assignment。
突然想起恭和堂的王老吉,要加药粉的!可是这附近没开分行,就算有也不像McD那样开24hrs吧。

问离家的游子们,生病了都会特别想家吗?还是唯有我,生病时特别渴望家庭的温暖。
清新的空气,舒服的床,好躺的沙发,以及美味又营养的家里饭。
听起来好像不太独立,呵,谁管?

离失业的日子还有一个多月,为何?因为毕业就是失业。
有点犹豫,是否毕业后就该乖乖回家,还是继续留在这打拼。
20%的期待,20%的害怕,还有60%的空白。
但暂时还是别想这些了,走着瞧吧。

好累。。要一睡到天亮,病菌赶快离开。

Monday, May 7, 2007

Banana Pie


阿ken你这个坏人,逼我在临睡前吞下一块恶心的香蕉派!还说要肥就一起肥!!!!
整个星期来,食欲和睡欲都不太好。一天吃得一餐,还会呕吐。晚上断续睡那四五个小时就醒了,不然就在做恶梦。
网上查询了一番,结果显示说这是忧郁症的预兆。WTF?!?!?! 我竟然患上轻微的忧郁症了???
还好,一切从昨天开始便渐渐好转了,也比较能集中精神去做事,虽然还会有小小的反胃。我没患忧郁症,只是小小的生活习惯失调。
我还轻了两个kg呢得意地说!嘻嘻~
Have a good week ahead~! (心里的OS:妈的,又拜一,又要忙了!!!)

Sunday, May 6, 2007

Just a Saturday


On this very fine and sunny Saturday, I woke up late in the afternoon, as usual. Bathed & brushed, switched on my lappy to check if any of my groupmates have sent me their files thru email, and none of them have!! I'm so gonna kill & fried them alive!!!! >.< Ah well, Saturday is The Laundry Day for me, so i hurried downstairs, thrown all my dirty cloths into the washing machine, and tidy up my room a bit while waiting.


Cloths are cleaned, but not dried. Normally i'll bring them to the self-service laundry to dry them up, instead of hanging them under the sun. For RM3.50 (5x50sen) and a 25 minutes of drying process, my cloths are as dry as... new? Haha. Quite worth the cost actually, for a lazy arse like me! hehe. So i got on my car, and drove to the laundry instead of walking under the killingly hot sun, althou it's quite near by. Wait a minute.... WTF? I'm drove?!


Yes, why not? Hahaha! See this? Ta daaaa~! This is my brand new baby! It's a Toyota Vios! *FU-YOH* not the one with full spec but doesnt matter as long as i'm *Happy happy!* Had lunch with a friend after i'm done with my laundry and he with his hair cut. New hair style, very charming indeed i must say! xD


After filling up my empty stomach (which i vomitted out half of the plate of mee after that due to my uncomfy stomach =.="), i paid a friendly visit to Miss Soya, who was working part time in the bookstore. See, i'm such a nice friend! hehehehe, NO!? Honestly, it's because i get to read FREEEEEEEE comics since she's working there. Hurray?! The picture shows the place that i always sit at, a corner of the bookstore, very cozy and homely feel. Got my private fan somemore! Hehe... Spent my rest of the day here, and got myself a butt ache, thou its FUR that i was sitting on. Doesnt matter, as long as i get to enjoy FREEEEEE comics. LOL~

Such a typical diary, so not me! Blekkkkkk~



" Make life 'better', instead of 'bitter' " --- Sis

Nahhhhhhhh, that's not my car actually. Was just dreaming to have one, hopefully soon! But i was really driving it, coz my friend had appointment with the hair stylist and couldnt find any parking spaces, and i had to get to the laundry! Killed 2 birds with 1 stone ey? Hehe.... Gotcha!!

Thursday, May 3, 2007

两个数字带来了解脱

我不爱数字,因为我对它特别迟钝。但是我突然发现,数字其实能代表或显示出好多事情。
刚才无意中发现两个数字,对于我一直以来为疑惑和猜测寻找的答案,终于在此刻水落石出。
事隔那么久,我心理上自残了那么久,难道我不累,不辛苦吗?很累,非常辛苦!22年来最难挨的!!
也许是我太渴望爱情,到了极点,事后才会离不开原点,继续盼望着有的没的。

事实终归事实,有的人说变就变,就那么彻底和残酷。这就是爱情吧我想。
看透了一个人在缓变的心,难免会心痛,但又能怎样呢?怪不了谁。
碍眼的都放进白色桌子下的冷宫,两只手机里收藏了许久的短讯们都完全删除了。
也就因为看见了两个代表着I'm owned!的数字,心头顿时少了颗大石,心身一阵轻飘。

分手的时候,理由不必说的那么充足伟大,话也别说的那么铁齿。到最后还不是在打自己的嘴巴??在自己还未肯定要的是什么时,就别轻易接受一个人的心。因为你还小,没受过多少的伤,不了解分手时后的伤有多痛多难熬,特别是如果你还深爱着他。而且,付出过的人,伤得最深!你懂吗? 因为一些别人听了都会捏把冷汗的理由而分开,然后快节奏地搭上突然杀出的程咬金船活得快乐自在,不当前者是一回事。呵,我不因而心疼,只是觉得失望,和某份量的不甘心。

相信当初你对我的,在06年还未结束就转淡了,对吗?你真正的情浓时期,只不过是交往后的一个多月,剩下的只是为了坚持而坚持?现在,如果你是一时寂寞难耐,一时需要个肩膀,或因新鲜感而对对方说了yes,那你保重了!希望你不再为任何人带来不必要的眼泪。况且,外头的诱惑还多得很,自问你能抵挡得多少?见一个就对一个有感觉,对吗这样子?

老实说,你是个非常优秀的人!品学兼优外,思想也有一定的成熟而不复杂,有别于其他同年的家伙。这都是我让我无法自拔的原因。可是,你不太懂得如何面对与操作感情或感觉的问题。也许你还需要不断认识与肯定自己,让
自己稳定下来不再犹豫漂浮,不被一时的感觉或诱惑影响决定。 渴望得到的与真实拥有的往往有差别,这点相信大家都认同。 明白了自己要些什么,不必要求或计较太多,再好好地珍惜拥有。我,却很遗憾得失去了拥有的机会。

这些单方面的判断,也许听来很不公平,但也无所谓。

因为我了解现况,自己连一位普通朋友都不如的失格现况。


没有要扮可怜博同情的意思,纯粹是有感而发。


没关习,多谢两个数字,让我开始得到解脱,懂得慢慢调试自己,抛开一切思念,勇于向前走,不再望回头。


不管你会不会在看,或在不在乎,之前令你反感的愚蠢小动作,在这和你说声抱歉!

祝你过得幸福快乐吧!



P/S:送自己一首‘闭幕曲’,是你推荐,我们都爱听的,张学友-- 好久不见。


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