Friday, March 30, 2012

低潮transition

工作的transition period | 就是等待把手头上的棒子交给下个星期报到的新人,等待自己的宝贝计划换主人,等待时间嘀嗒嘀嗒过。等待同时需要回答四面各方的‘审问’,要去哪里啊干吗要去那里啊等,更要看很多大人物的小心眼,因为一旦他们知道你即将跳槽,你的额头上就会被贴上‘卖国贼’三个字。好心,都什么年代了,您自己也不是曾经洒手段拿了隔壁家的offer letter来争宠!?

生活的transition period | 就是房子和新工作的距离远了许多,不能再赖床赖到八点半才出门。再来家里的虫子问题还未搞定,每天回到家都是惊心胆跳的,睡前不停抓不停擦药,睡得正着突然痒醒,睡眠品质完全亮红灯。健康,更不必说,一塌糊涂。有痰咳到干咳,鼻塞等等没完没了。

爱情的transition period | 心痛又头痛。天真盲目的那个不懂是自己还是对方,只知道自己不能再这样折磨自己,唯有一个能接受的交代、解释和承诺才能把问题解决,不然就好狠心把故事做个了断,结束,完毕。没必要为了坚持,为了面子,为了惋惜,为了买好的机票,而坚持。

2012年的transition period与低潮期就是现在。
低潮到我受不了买了块oreo cheesecake来tea。

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Trust me.

If you are a superior with dick, you should trust your staff who have been working under you for 3 years, and have developed the whole freaking project and is still handling it at 100% capacity for you, even if he is going to leave your company in a month's time and will not execute the project himself. (Not to mention, your boss is not allowing the father of the baby project to be present at the event due to conflict of interest, which in reality he can single handedly destroy the project if he wants to!!)

So, TRUST, is one word you need, to me.


Oh I so need a cup of the above but I can't.

Monday, March 26, 2012

Sugar, egg white, and almond powder

On sick leave today but managed to go out to the clinic & to get food etc, also, to get something sweet, for self-cheering.



1 little 2 little 3 little 4 little 5 little macarons
Works better than a pain killer, lessen pain inside out.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

最后一次

Today was my final public fair appearance for my current company. The upcoming one in July will be a totally different experience. Been hearing some not so positive comments about it but, never try never know, will have to see how it goes.

Anyway, I was driving solo this round, no one from my department was there except me, and 9 of my fellow student helpers. They are few of the coolest, most helpful, dedicated, sincere students helpers I've known, well maybe because I don't really know many of the others. Definitely going to miss having them around, passing me materials or calling for help or dragging me to do counselling.



Andy, Jiawei, redgirl & Tom (staff) from Subang campus, Nabila Nikki Fiona Steven Jiaxin Voonhon Khailing Leewee from TBS Lakeside. You guys were amazing. :)

I look so MATURED in this last shot. : |

Saturday, March 24, 2012

serious

这一次我很认真看待这件事,因为我厌倦了发生事情后说声对不起就草草了事那种不负责任的坏习惯。任何好事坏事都该有始有终,没有交待等于没有结束,没有句点的不踏实感我不喜欢!

看书吧,多看书有益心身。

Friday, March 23, 2012

This morning at work...

A group of my closest 'client', i.e. the principal, the deputy principal, the president & members of PTA (Parents Teachers Association) of a secondary school came for a visit today, while enrolling the president's son into our program.

I was entertaining them with other colleagues, chit chatting, walked away awhile and went back. Then out of sudden, the deputy and this president of PTA (a very nice, kindred yet powerful, respected-by-many single mum who sees me as her son/little brother) looked at me with eyes wide open, and asked, 'Alan, you look so sad since just now, why is it what's wrong? Tell me, are you leaving...?'. I got a little bit shock and silenced for few seconds before I responded, 'Mmm... honestly yes I am.'

Well from the beginning when I knew they were coming, I did planned to tell/inform them, particularly 2 of them that I'm closet to and respect on, the deputy principal & the present of PTA, about my decision of moving on, leaving this magnificent place, but then again it did seemed to be the right time.

How did they find out? Seriously I didn't think they saw it from my face although I did look unhappy, instead, I believe it was my boss who told them cause he was also there too. My boss, you know, can understand that he is trying to maintain & rescue the relationship with one of his biggest clients cause his staff servicing them is jumping to another boat.

The way both of them looking at me when I said Yes was, kinda saddening, no idea why. I felt sad too for not being able to service them again on behalf of my current company, but when they asked further on my direction, I refused to answer, cause my boss was around.

Lunch, boss brought them to a nice cafe in campus that I always visit. They sat down to make their orders, and because the president is fasting, she stood and drag me aside to question me. 'Where are you going Alan? Tell me. Will I still see you around?' I smiled at her and told her where I'm heading, the place she was once close to as well. She was so glad, so so glad, and went to tell the deputy. 2 of them laughed and happily shacked my hand I don't know for what, but it did wash away some of my worries of losing supports from them. :)

Thanks to them, this group of client-turned-friend people, I felt so good of being appreciated, at least I know where I stand now, and how much value have I gained for myself. This proves that working with full respect, truth & sincerity is always the right move to gain others' trust.

Despite of the issues that have been bothering me these few days, the above has indeed coloured up my day a little.



Me, waiting outside MVEC hours ago...

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Regina Spektor is...

my new girl friend.



She understands me so well, soothes me so gently.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

我说

一个解释或一个交待有力过千万个对不起。

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

un接受able

我无法接受你收下了他的礼物
而且还要戴在手上被我看见!!


讨厌死那只龙年限量版的臭手表!!!!

Sunday, March 18, 2012

thou yet departed

I'm starting to miss this place already :(




要离开一个自己喜欢又因以为傲的环境,难免会感伤。

Sunday, March 11, 2012

通天

我离职的消息才不到一星期就通天了,同事一个接一个得来‘问候’我与我的去向。他们是出自于关心还是抱着八卦心态,我不懂,也不重要。重要的是,这一件事足于证实了办公室里谁的口风最紧,谁是八婆!



床边的一个角落。大嘴鸣,ada看到熟眼的东西tak?

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

while sipping my peppermint tea...

I've signed & accepted the new offer, which also means that I've really really really decided to move on, for better or for worse. Turning back is not an option.

But meanwhile, the pressure given to me, to return home for the sake of his business, is too huge to be handled, nor to be ignored. Feel my helplessness.

9 years of living independently on this land, from nothing to something, love, friends, everything a life need, which I will have to let go should the one pity day comes.

*craving for a hot bowl of spicy ramen now....*