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Recently I was given an opportunity to take over certain responsibilities from another colleague, whom, according to the higher management, is not communicating well with the foreign partner nor performing well with the targets given.

I was surprised when told, and in doubt very much with my ability, whether I am able to hold such an important role or not. But after a second thought, I agreed to take up this role, firstly is to train myself further, to gain extra values and international contacts (Switzerland!!), secondly to earn some extra income.

The management has yet made it official, meaning the currently person in charge who is also my partner for some projects, has no idea at all that this will be taken away from her and to be parked under me. Now this is going to be awkward! No hard feelings I hope, because it is not my decision nor our manager's decision, it was decided by the management as well as the foreign partner.

The person who I am going to liaise with, from Switzerland, is known for his high demand in work quality and dedications, which I believe I will suffer a bit but should not be a problem, since I will have enough supports from the management and enough budget to do what I plan to.

So what is my worry now then?

I have no idea yet but I am feeling a bit uneasy after receiving an email with list of work to do for December.

Maybe it is just a sudden doubt of my real ability, whether I can cope with it on top of my current responsibilities, planned projects and events for 2013 and so on.

Maybe I am simply thinking too much too far in advance.

Maybe right after consolidating all the above I would feel better.

I hope I will.

Switzerland woo hoo!

My Best Friend's Wedding

Nothing to do with the movie.

My best buddy since Form 3 has just got married last Saturday, and unavoidably, I was one of the heng dais in crime to grab over the bride from the evil ji muis. Ohhhh they were really crazy! Imagine your face being treated like a drawing paper, lipsticks eyeliners fake eyelashes all over your face. Not to mention the cilipadi cracker, oh so spicey!

Congratulations old friend! It was a day full of love and blessings, almost teared seeing Mrs. Cheong accompanied by aunty & uncle, walking towards you. :)

Now, when can I hug my kai-zai kai-lui??? *poke holes on his condom*

Look Back

Sometimes in Life we got to stop walking and take a look back

to make sure we've been thru enough hard times to build ourselves

to make sure experiences are well digested into personal values

to make sure values are applied on the right way and right time

and to make sure we are still walking on the right path...

C'est la vie~

Photo: Broga Hills, courtesy of Georgen T. 

Keep Running

I'm not a hard core runner, but running has been one of the sports I do nowadays aside from attending Body Combat, since I'm not good at balls a.k.a. kaki bangku. 

Few months ago I've achieved one of my goal this year, by completing a 21km half marathon. It felt so good, great sense of achievement. 

4 runs in total in 2012. The next, which is also the last one this year, is Penang Bridge International Marathon on November. Another 21km. :)

Keep running Alan, and take care of your knees too!

Le Rain

4 hours of sleep this morning was totally not enough.

Hence the drowsiness, plus the coldness due to the rains.
Such perfect weather to laze around and fall asleep.

Hopefully I don't black out during combat later.

Haii yakkkk~ kicks and jabs and more kicks!!

做人難。難做人。

人與人的關係，就是如此奧妙。

You can't make everyone happy! :)

曾经

那个互相送对方早餐面包的曾经

我还是比较喜欢那样子体贴的曾经，的你。

只可惜往事只能回味。

放弃边缘

一次又一次得

靠近放弃的边缘。

SCKLM Honda Half Marathon

I nailed you in 2 hours 54 minutes.
One more goal of 2012 achieved. :)

易發28

謝謝你們提前的生日驚喜，還有我頭上那頂帽子。

生活中有你們的用心，體貼和關懷，是一種福氣！

好喜歡我們的‘全家福’，溫馨到~

28歲，要更努力活著哦！加油！

Judgement Day

Pray that no sorts of suspensions of any kind will happen on me. I need to drive, to work, to survive.

Can't imagine how life is going to be, in the big city, without a driving license. 

无惊无险又到拜三

星期三的心情特别好，因为忙碌的工作天即将结束，过两天又是精彩的周末。

而且刚刚在Whatsapp里聊的好兴奋好High哦，有了这一堆朋友我的生活不难过。

You've made my Saturday

因为你，我推掉了同事的踏青邀约。
因为你，我放弃了偶像的演唱会票。
因为你，我哪里都不去等待你过来。
也因为你，我浪费了整个周六，浪费了办事的时间和机会，浪费了好心情。

蓝界

第一天到新公司上班，很早出门，天黑才回到，所谓早出晚归。

很多新的人要认识，新的程序要熟悉，新的方向要前进。又新又刺激，我爱！

蓝界是因为公司的颜色说。

Ukulele

I have been talking about learning this piece of instrument so long, that I really behtahan myself already. Last Sunday, I forced myself to drive (driver drive, not me) alllllll the way to Sunway Batu Caves's Ukulele Malaya to get my green little O-might. His name is Pea. Small & Mighty! Hehe

Learning process have been ok so far, above is my 2nd song, trying to master the chords plus the singing part. A bit hard cause I can't seem to play and sing at the same time. But fortunately, there is this little bit of music talent in me. Will try to post up a video or something once I master the whole thing.

Anyway, this will be my last post using this laptop, as tomorrow is my last day at work.

Cheers. :)

Energized

Completed my 1st run for 2012, Le Energizer Night Race 2012.

I look slimmer in the photo hor? Too bad it is not true at all in real life!!! :(

Anyway that was my 1st 15.5km run, before I challenge the 21km half marathon in June. 

Ahhh... feels so good to have achieved something. :)

Change of URL

Dear all,

Due to some reasons, the URL to my blog will be changed tomorrow (Monday) onwards. If you are still being kind and willing to follow my crap, SMS me or message me on Facebook for the URL. Terima Kasih banyak banyak!!!

Cheers~
Alan C

R.I.P. Shirley

I have known her for a number of years, although not very close, as she was one of the Taylor's staff based in KK office who enrolled me into my studies in Taylor's right after high school, and for being colleagues for the past 3 years.

Shirley, a kind, soft spoken, helpful, look wise a little bit timid yet very knowledgeable, living a healthy living lady.

Only god will know why, she was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer just 2 months ago, out of sudden. The cancer has somehow moved up to her brain, causing her speech difficulties at some point. She refused any kind of treatment at first I heard, but for some reason her family brought her over to UKM hospital, seeking the last hope to survive.

My colleagues went to see her yesterday afternoon, she was still able to talk a bit, read and reply smses, but according to them, she is not going to hold much longer.

I was suppose to pay her a visit this afternoon, before she flies back to KK tomorrow, but I was too late. She left us just about an hour before my arrival at the hospital. All I got to see was a covered coffin-like bed, with her body rested inside.

Dear Shirley, so sorry for not sending you an sms, or saying good bye to you when I still could. May you rest in peace with father god, you are at a better place now.

You will definitely be missed. :)

咬着不放

别怪我咬着不放

要怪就怪你自己不够用心去了结问题。

违规

长那么大，除了一两次因随意泊车而收牛肉干外，自己基本上是一位遵守交通规则的好市民。可惜，这位好市民这次却无意违反了交通规则，开着路税已过期一个月的车子到处去工作，发现的时候已经太迟，前面就是JPJ设的路障了。

好市民坚持着好市民的本色，拽着要（等着收咖啡钱的）他开罚单，不愿涉及任何与贿赂有关的行为。结果，就这样被他开了罚单，一张不是只是罚款而必须上法庭被审的罚单。

好市民犯的法律条文不轻，除了罚款外，严重的有可能要入狱，再吊销驾照为期12个月。律师朋友说，第一次犯规通常只有罚款，不必入狱，但驾照难免会被吊销，12个月！

12个月无法开车，你能想象日子要怎么过吗？特别是我们这行，每天到处奔到处见客户的，没了车子就等于断了收入，完蛋了。

真搞不清楚，法律是用来保护我们，还是为难我们？一个小过错就吊销驾照，这对国家有什么好处吗？！

过了一个周末，心情平复下来，冷静得想了几番，唯一能做的就是等6月13日，看那个官要怎么判，看律师朋友要怎么辩护，看自己的生活将转变成什么样。

Road Transport Act 1987

Section 90(2) 
If a person acts in contravention of this section he shall be guilty of an offence and shall on conviction be liable to a fine not exceeding one thousand ringgit or to imprisonment for a term not exceeding three months or to both and a person convicted of an offence under this section shall, unless the court for special reasons to be specified in the order thinks fit to order otherwise and without prejudice to the power of the court to order a longer period of disqualification, be disqualified from holding or obtaining a driving licence under Part II for a period of twelve months from the date of the conviction.


I am screwed by my carelessness of driving with an expired roadtax... Seriously screwed big time. 

half half

依然处于那种要又不要，去又不去，想又不想，出又不出，吃又不吃，跑又不跑，伤又不伤，爱又不爱，爽又不爽，气又不气，冷又不冷，恨又不恨，是又不是等等的一半半状态。

过渡期哦过渡期，还有两个星期快快给我过掉滚蛋去！

阿公日的下午茶

感谢阿公，赐给子民一天的假日，让大家在一周的中间有机会松口气，聚一聚。

与三五知己出游闲逛，逛累了就来个下午茶，吹个水，过瘾到不行。

明天继续冲刺，跑跑跑~

泄气

当感情像破了洞的气球
渐渐地从伤痕中泄出时。。。

Morning Jog

Went for my first ever morning jog in the history of... me being on this land since 2003. Taman Bukit Jalil is quite a huge taman, good facilities, ample of parking spaces, and plenty of families on a Sunday morning, which I don't really like lah. I prefer parks with less people, more naturally grown trees, natural lakes and so on, very picky hor? I love the nature as it is.

Spot the monkey?

I've been away from the treadmill for almost 2 weeks, stamina down energy down everything down, so 2 rounds of park jogging was just nice as a restart. Energizer Nite Race coming soon, 15km to conquer. Wish me luck man!! Need to run as many as I can now, not on the treadmill but on real ground.

Getting a new pair of running shorts and iphone armband asap.

A bedbug is a badbug

Sleeps have been terrible lately due to some bug invasion in my room. I keep getting huge itchy bites but had no idea what bug was it. The itchiness was/is so extreme, I had/have to scratch it, unintentionally, but very syiok! Going to the pharmacy asking for antihistamine to relief allergies and to get insect spray was no long term cure.

I so wanted to catch the bug but no way I can locate it with my black bed sheet. So few days ago after work I rushed to get a plain white bed sheet, washed, dried and used it immediately. And on the same night, I caught this....

Google tells me this is BED BUG!!!!! YIKES!!!! 我好惊啊！！！！！ And there are no ways of getting rid of them other than calling for the bug company, which will cost me RM500 for 3 treatments. According to them my condition is not that serious, just the start and if I'm able to destroy them and their possible eggs, I might not need to spend RM500 for the treatment.

Fingers crossed that all the kakak's and my cleaning job helps, one way or another.

PS: I'm catching almost 1 bug a day for few days already, medicine container is almost full.... : (

乐不娱人人自娱

重复又重复的想法

与其不满他人给不到自己要的快乐

不如自己对自己好多点来自得其乐

因为没有一个人能比自己对自己更好 :_ ）

喘

看了三次医生，给了三次不同牌子的同样药物，三次都不见效的所以我问他还可以怎么办并题到我小时候的哮喘病，怕是病发还是什么的。结果他好像被offended了说一就是试新药二就是写信给我入院，说我不应该在他面前这样子讲话。他妈的没用的panel clinics，所以我跑到药剂师那里求救。

最后，阔别了15年‘通管’inhaler，没想到27岁末还需要它来还我顺畅的呼吸。

低潮transition

工作的transition period | 就是等待把手头上的棒子交给下个星期报到的新人，等待自己的宝贝计划换主人，等待时间嘀嗒嘀嗒过。等待同时需要回答四面各方的‘审问’，要去哪里啊干吗要去那里啊等，更要看很多大人物的小心眼，因为一旦他们知道你即将跳槽，你的额头上就会被贴上‘卖国贼’三个字。好心，都什么年代了，您自己也不是曾经洒手段拿了隔壁家的offer letter来争宠！？

生活的transition period | 就是房子和新工作的距离远了许多，不能再赖床赖到八点半才出门。再来家里的虫子问题还未搞定，每天回到家都是惊心胆跳的，睡前不停抓不停擦药，睡得正着突然痒醒，睡眠品质完全亮红灯。健康，更不必说，一塌糊涂。有痰咳到干咳，鼻塞等等没完没了。

爱情的transition period | 心痛又头痛。天真盲目的那个不懂是自己还是对方，只知道自己不能再这样折磨自己，唯有一个能接受的交代、解释和承诺才能把问题解决，不然就好狠心把故事做个了断，结束，完毕。没必要为了坚持，为了面子，为了惋惜，为了买好的机票，而坚持。

2012年的transition period与低潮期就是现在。
低潮到我受不了买了块oreo cheesecake来tea。

Trust me.

If you are a superior with dick, you should trust your staff who have been working under you for 3 years, and have developed the whole freaking project and is still handling it at 100% capacity for you, even if he is going to leave your company in a month's time and will not execute the project himself. (Not to mention, your boss is not allowing the father of the baby project to be present at the event due to conflict of interest, which in reality he can single handedly destroy the project if he wants to!!)

So, TRUST, is one word you need, to me.

Oh I so need a cup of the above but I can't.

Sugar, egg white, and almond powder

On sick leave today but managed to go out to the clinic & to get food etc, also, to get something sweet, for self-cheering.



1 little 2 little 3 little 4 little 5 little macarons
Works better than a pain killer, lessen pain inside out.

最后一次

Today was my final public fair appearance for my current company. The upcoming one in July will be a totally different experience. Been hearing some not so positive comments about it but, never try never know, will have to see how it goes.

Anyway, I was driving solo this round, no one from my department was there except me, and 9 of my fellow student helpers. They are few of the coolest, most helpful, dedicated, sincere students helpers I've known, well maybe because I don't really know many of the others. Definitely going to miss having them around, passing me materials or calling for help or dragging me to do counselling.



Andy, Jiawei, redgirl & Tom (staff) from Subang campus, Nabila Nikki Fiona Steven Jiaxin Voonhon Khailing Leewee from TBS Lakeside. You guys were amazing. :)

I look so MATURED in this last shot. : |

serious

这一次我很认真看待这件事，因为我厌倦了发生事情后说声对不起就草草了事那种不负责任的坏习惯。任何好事坏事都该有始有终，没有交待等于没有结束，没有句点的不踏实感我不喜欢！

看书吧，多看书有益心身。

This morning at work...

A group of my closest 'client', i.e. the principal, the deputy principal, the president & members of PTA (Parents Teachers Association) of a secondary school came for a visit today, while enrolling the president's son into our program.

I was entertaining them with other colleagues, chit chatting, walked away awhile and went back. Then out of sudden, the deputy and this president of PTA (a very nice, kindred yet powerful, respected-by-many single mum who sees me as her son/little brother) looked at me with eyes wide open, and asked, 'Alan, you look so sad since just now, why is it what's wrong? Tell me, are you leaving...?'. I got a little bit shock and silenced for few seconds before I responded, 'Mmm... honestly yes I am.'

Well from the beginning when I knew they were coming, I did planned to tell/inform them, particularly 2 of them that I'm closet to and respect on, the deputy principal & the present of PTA, about my decision of moving on, leaving this magnificent place, but then again it did seemed to be the right time.

How did they find out? Seriously I didn't think they saw it from my face although I did look unhappy, instead, I believe it was my boss who told them cause he was also there too. My boss, you know, can understand that he is trying to maintain & rescue the relationship with one of his biggest clients cause his staff servicing them is jumping to another boat.

The way both of them looking at me when I said Yes was, kinda saddening, no idea why. I felt sad too for not being able to service them again on behalf of my current company, but when they asked further on my direction, I refused to answer, cause my boss was around.

Lunch, boss brought them to a nice cafe in campus that I always visit. They sat down to make their orders, and because the president is fasting, she stood and drag me aside to question me. 'Where are you going Alan? Tell me. Will I still see you around?' I smiled at her and told her where I'm heading, the place she was once close to as well. She was so glad, so so glad, and went to tell the deputy. 2 of them laughed and happily shacked my hand I don't know for what, but it did wash away some of my worries of losing supports from them. :)

Thanks to them, this group of client-turned-friend people, I felt so good of being appreciated, at least I know where I stand now, and how much value have I gained for myself. This proves that working with full respect, truth & sincerity is always the right move to gain others' trust.

Despite of the issues that have been bothering me these few days, the above has indeed coloured up my day a little.



Me, waiting outside MVEC hours ago...

Regina Spektor is...

my new girl friend.



She understands me so well, soothes me so gently.

我说

一个解释或一个交待有力过千万个对不起。

un接受able

我无法接受你收下了他的礼物
而且还要戴在手上被我看见!!

讨厌死那只龙年限量版的臭手表!!!!

thou yet departed

I'm starting to miss this place already :(




要离开一个自己喜欢又因以为傲的环境，难免会感伤。

通天

我离职的消息才不到一星期就通天了，同事一个接一个得来‘问候’我与我的去向。他们是出自于关心还是抱着八卦心态，我不懂，也不重要。重要的是，这一件事足于证实了办公室里谁的口风最紧，谁是八婆！



床边的一个角落。大嘴鸣，ada看到熟眼的东西tak？

while sipping my peppermint tea...

I've signed & accepted the new offer, which also means that I've really really really decided to move on, for better or for worse. Turning back is not an option.

But meanwhile, the pressure given to me, to return home for the sake of his business, is too huge to be handled, nor to be ignored. Feel my helplessness.

9 years of living independently on this land, from nothing to something, love, friends, everything a life need, which I will have to let go should the one pity day comes.

*craving for a hot bowl of spicy ramen now....*

229的决定

面试成了，offer到手，决定离开湖畔，向前（钱）走。

你最爱的太阳花，下次送一整束给你！:)

True Story

I believe this happens to every single one of you who has passed puberty.



So do I. :D