谈何容易

要赤裸裸地面对一个陌生却希望能帮助自己的人，用自己过往的快乐与伤悲来填满她需要对你的了解，同时还必须对这些不堪回首的往事打分，谈何容易。

关心我的话就别问太多以上的内容，用平时少用的心来包容我暂时的情绪就好了。

I don't want to die

I realised that I have not been myself lately, with extra low self esteem and confidence leading to overwhelming negative thoughts including suicidal ones, I have to brave myself to seek help from the expert. And hence, I have made an appointment with the psychological counsellor today, for help. Please give me your love and support, tell me that I will be fine and renewed  by the end of the sessions.

Because I really don't want to die just like that.

Cheers

30岁前后之Check List

2013我check了。。。
1。Kia Rio 车子（应该快要实现了！）   - Checked!
2。微波炉（为了方便把晚餐热一热）
3。空气负离子兼洁净器   - Checked!
4。硬壳行李箱   - Checked!
5。Crumpler斜背包
6。G-shock 手表/Tissot腕表   - Checked!
7。Private Trainer课程
8。明年5月的Melbourne+Adelaide 10天游！！！
9。Galaxy S4 LTE 或 iPhone5s
10。一双好的记忆型枕头   - Checked!

2014我得努力的。。。
1. 去年未达成的Crumpler斜背包
2. 去年未达成的PT课程
3. 去年未达成的iPhone6
4. 去年未达成的明年5或6月Melbourne+Adelaide 10日游/冬季旅行
5. 去年未达成的微波炉一台
6. 进修课程（沟通技巧/英语/领导/等）
7. 多功能运动鞋一双
8. 心灵与身体的排毒疗程/课程
9. 好的工作用腰带一条 
10. 搬新房子？

归

当了11年的浪子，是时候回来当孝子了吗？

一个不敢想不敢问不敢面对的问题，因为我不舍。

新家

亲爱的，住进了新家一定要乖哦，不要再用牙齿来和新主人打招呼了！新主人也同意说你很八婆，什么都要看什么都要管，这就是我们的toffee啊对不？

女主人说这个周六会带你到ohana去玩，到时候见咯我们！希望你还记得我这个寄养人吧！

谢谢Kylie领养了Toffee。：）

Dear Toffee

Thank you for coming into my life. I have never regretted picking you up from the campus, brought you back home with me, treated you at the vet which has made you healthier and stronger, and let you go thru the first surgery of your life which will definitely make you live longer and happier. 

Three months seemed so long to measure yet so fast to live by. We have been thru pretty much and yes you have made me so angry before, so angry that I might have gone out of my mind in doing what I should not. I am very truly sorry to have harmed or hurt you in anyway, I did not mean it. 

Toffee my dear, if you knew how to read, I hope for your understanding that the decision of letting you go was hundred times tougher than keeping you in. You certainly deserve a bigger, safer place to live your life, not in this little room of mine. If I had an extra room or own a place, I would not have cried so many times looking at your empty cage and photos we shared. 

Don't worry my dear, rest assured that your future mastergirl will love you as much or even more than I do. You will be best with her. I am going to pay you visits once a while, just to make sure you are alright. If not, you come back to me and stay with me until we both grow old. I promise you!

My little baby girl, thank you again for the heart warming three months we have spent together. I have seen you grown up so much, from a tiny little fur ball to the you now I see. Our photos and memories will forever be kept safe with me. I wish you well with your new family, and we will meet again soon!

Loving you,

Masterboy

19 Jan 2014

想瘦

2014年。

我真的很想瘦下来，不必太多线条或是多少块肌，只要腰围和肚子不凸出，赘肉不摇晃就好了。

到底需要怎么样的毅力和动力才会让自己铁下心来瘦下去啊？难道非受创不可？

Hmmm.... 

Merry Merry

要知足常乐，所以没有让失落的表情显露出来。靠自己最踏实！

2014，30岁快乐！

Check List

几乎每一年的生日和圣诞，我都会为自己写下一个wish list，不管是在这里，在面子书里，还是在自己的画簿里。说是wish list，其实比较像个check list。写下自己想拥有的物质，然后让自己慢慢地努力地实现。电脑，电话，相机，健身配套，车镜的防晒膜，贴身物品等等，大多数都有达成，也算是渺小的成就。

今年的check list，就如下吧！
1。Kia Rio 车子（应该快要实现了！）
2。微波炉（为了方便把晚餐热一热）
3。空气负离子兼洁净器
4。硬壳行李箱
5。Crumpler斜背包
6。G-shock 手表/Tissot腕表
7。Private Trainer课程
8。明年5月的Melbourne+Adelaide 10天游！！！
9。Galaxy S4 LTE 或 iPhone5s
10。一双好的记忆型枕头

看看一年后的成果吧！

M字头

M字头。可以拿来形容本宫的额头，发线渐渐向上移，很快便加入我爸的行列---秃头族。

M字头。也就是MONEY，钱！赚多少用多少？庆幸的是自己已经渐渐摆脱月光族的生活。

M字头。别看我平时不声不声，我认真起来凶起来的时候是很MAN很鬼MAN一下的！

M字头。我喜欢现在的浪子生活吗？自由自在够了吗？衣锦还乡的时候到了吗？MAYBE。

M字头。新公司叫MONASH，澳洲8大大学，几威水一下，内内外外的人也几难搞一下。

M字头。要换车了，只负担得起本地小辣椒MYVI一辆，不大不小不贵不烂刚刚好适合。

M字头。MIND不MIND人家的闲言闲语异样眼光社会排斥过街老鼠人人喊打？不懂哦。

M字头。刚刚好MIDNIGHT 12点。早睡早起精神好，办起事来效率高，老板经理哈哈笑！

久违的网上老家，晚安！