serious

这一次我很认真看待这件事，因为我厌倦了发生事情后说声对不起就草草了事那种不负责任的坏习惯。任何好事坏事都该有始有终，没有交待等于没有结束，没有句点的不踏实感我不喜欢！

看书吧，多看书有益心身。

This morning at work...

A group of my closest 'client', i.e. the principal, the deputy principal, the president & members of PTA (Parents Teachers Association) of a secondary school came for a visit today, while enrolling the president's son into our program.

I was entertaining them with other colleagues, chit chatting, walked away awhile and went back. Then out of sudden, the deputy and this president of PTA (a very nice, kindred yet powerful, respected-by-many single mum who sees me as her son/little brother) looked at me with eyes wide open, and asked, 'Alan, you look so sad since just now, why is it what's wrong? Tell me, are you leaving...?'. I got a little bit shock and silenced for few seconds before I responded, 'Mmm... honestly yes I am.'

Well from the beginning when I knew they were coming, I did planned to tell/inform them, particularly 2 of them that I'm closet to and respect on, the deputy principal & the present of PTA, about my decision of moving on, leaving this magnificent place, but then again it did seemed to be the right time.

How did they find out? Seriously I didn't think they saw it from my face although I did look unhappy, instead, I believe it was my boss who told them cause he was also there too. My boss, you know, can understand that he is trying to maintain & rescue the relationship with one of his biggest clients cause his staff servicing them is jumping to another boat.

The way both of them looking at me when I said Yes was, kinda saddening, no idea why. I felt sad too for not being able to service them again on behalf of my current company, but when they asked further on my direction, I refused to answer, cause my boss was around.

Lunch, boss brought them to a nice cafe in campus that I always visit. They sat down to make their orders, and because the president is fasting, she stood and drag me aside to question me. 'Where are you going Alan? Tell me. Will I still see you around?' I smiled at her and told her where I'm heading, the place she was once close to as well. She was so glad, so so glad, and went to tell the deputy. 2 of them laughed and happily shacked my hand I don't know for what, but it did wash away some of my worries of losing supports from them. :)

Thanks to them, this group of client-turned-friend people, I felt so good of being appreciated, at least I know where I stand now, and how much value have I gained for myself. This proves that working with full respect, truth & sincerity is always the right move to gain others' trust.

Despite of the issues that have been bothering me these few days, the above has indeed coloured up my day a little.



Me, waiting outside MVEC hours ago...

Regina Spektor is...

my new girl friend.



She understands me so well, soothes me so gently.

我说

一个解释或一个交待有力过千万个对不起。

un接受able

我无法接受你收下了他的礼物
而且还要戴在手上被我看见!!

讨厌死那只龙年限量版的臭手表!!!!

thou yet departed

I'm starting to miss this place already :(




要离开一个自己喜欢又因以为傲的环境，难免会感伤。

通天

我离职的消息才不到一星期就通天了，同事一个接一个得来‘问候’我与我的去向。他们是出自于关心还是抱着八卦心态，我不懂，也不重要。重要的是，这一件事足于证实了办公室里谁的口风最紧，谁是八婆！



床边的一个角落。大嘴鸣，ada看到熟眼的东西tak？

while sipping my peppermint tea...

I've signed & accepted the new offer, which also means that I've really really really decided to move on, for better or for worse. Turning back is not an option.

But meanwhile, the pressure given to me, to return home for the sake of his business, is too huge to be handled, nor to be ignored. Feel my helplessness.

9 years of living independently on this land, from nothing to something, love, friends, everything a life need, which I will have to let go should the one pity day comes.

*craving for a hot bowl of spicy ramen now....*

229的决定

面试成了，offer到手，决定离开湖畔，向前（钱）走。

你最爱的太阳花，下次送一整束给你！:)

True Story

I believe this happens to every single one of you who has passed puberty.



So do I. :D